I came to the realization that I haven't posted on my blog in a while and that despite the weather being exceptionally nice today, I did not go outside - two things I regret very much. However, I must not dwell and instead I'm going to talk about something I feel is very exciting.

We all have our own interests and some people will just never understand the things that make our own hearts flutter. That is life and the whole point of 'inspiring' and 'sharing' is to show people why they do as such to oneself. In other words, today I wanted to tell you guys about a topic that makes my heart flutter.

FILM MAKING.
As a number of you are aware, I have become very fond of the idea of going into production of film and TV. It is something I am really passionate about and would love to pursue in the future. In September, I will need to start looking around for the courses I am interested in for post 16 education surrounding the subject (I feel it is important to study the things you love).

I recently created a short film called 'Stored Away', in which I simply just mess around in my loft for a few hours and hope that the power of my editing skills and trusty Heinz Ketchup, give a good show. I honesty had a lot of laughs with myself whilst making this (call me mad I don't care). All in all, my message for today is to just go for it. If, in a couple of years I look back at this and think, 'What the hell was 15 year old Anna thinking, this is shocking!?!', at least I can then think that it was a starting point to many a better video.

There has always been this saying, that our mission in life is to 'find yourself'. The idea that you are alive and creating carbon dioxide, in order to die knowing who you are.

I honestly think that is a load of rubbish.
How can you 'find yourself' when you have no idea where to start looking? It's like expecting someone to know where they are going in a foreign city, that they have never been too.

I have decided there is a much simpler why of tackling the humongous question that seems to constantly line the front of each individuals mind: what is the purpose of life?

Well, today I propose this: we are here to create ourselves.

To live a life that we have always imagined. It will be hard with challenges being thrown at us from each direction. However, there is always one thing to remember - God has your back. He is pushing you down paths that you may not like the look of, but that won't stop him. God is working in your life right now, in ways you cannot understand.

The idea is that you create yourself. You make the person you want to be and be it. That does not mean acting up nor dropping the people that mean the most to you. It simply means that if you wish to do something, you do it and if  you don't, you don't. People say that sometimes you 'do not have a choice' however, I don't agree with this. You do not have to do anything you do not wish to do. If you set your mind to something - it is able to be done.

No matter how big or small a goal is, you are able to do it with the right frame of mind. There is no point trying to 'find yourself' in the maze that is the world we live in.

Hence why, you...

After having been writing this blog for over a year now, it has left me time to think over things.

For the last year, I have been writing on and off on this blog and I honestly feel it is a little part of me. Once I turned on my laptop earlier this evening, I noticed that I had reached 225,000+ views on google+  and over 15,000 views on my blog - something I am personally really proud of.
Now, (slightly bursting my bubble) a mate of mine expressed that that number 'isn't that big tbh'. Not only was I slightly annoyed by this, it made me realise something: For over a year I have been writing on a blog with the intention to inspire hundreds of people. Obviously, I know that this is not true yet - due to the 'isn't that big tbh' number of views and that I don't have millions of followers.

But here's the thing, I never ever do any of this for the views. I do it because I love to write, capture amazing memories and then be able to come back and read about them in a few years time. This is like an online diary and no matter how many times someone tells me that my channel sucks or that I don't have many followers, I simply smile.

To others, it may seem tiny. To me, it seems massive. To see how far I have come is my favourite part of it all. To know that this time 2 years ago, I had only dreamed of starting a blog and  maybe even a YouTube channel. I jumped out of my comfort zone - changing myself as a hole. I now have no shame in what I enjoy doing, people will try to affect me by telling me what I do is rubbish but I just laugh.

I know that deep down, it is something I really wish to do in the future. Writing is something I love to do and further more, to peruse some sort of career in it would be ideal and a dream come true. I wanted to mainly say a simple thank you. Thank you to the 1771 people who follow me across all platforms - you all mean so much to me.

Follow your dreams and do everything and anything that makes you happy. Keep smiling and listening to good music (such as Green Day).

Signing out,
Anna xx

Note from Anna: Tajaljeh you are stunning!

Then I am on my way to the school, I take a bus and in 20 minutes I am at school situated in the city center. My classes start at 8 am and they last untill 2.30 pm. During that time, we also have a long lunch break, when me and my friends go to the coffeshop or market to buy ourselves something to eat and rest from school haha. 

(Thursday Night)
I'm currently sitting on my 'disgracefully messy' bedroom floor, with half straightened hair and a backside that feels numb.

After an ok-ish day at school, I came home to a warm-ish house. I was lounging around, I realized I had gone over 141MB of data (which is supposedly 'unlimited') and I was happily making my way down my twitter feed - when I noticed something on my phone.

Now without the details, names, ID photos, addresses and things, lets just say I was not happy. Yet again, some people had hopelessly tried to get to me. The pointless comments were yet again made by people who yet again, I didn't really know. The realization of the fact that, some people will always find a way of getting to you and it is your duty to set up a metaphorical fortress of tanks, machetes and Spitfires; that you can happily situate yourself in the middle of.

No way was I going to let these small minded individuals get to me. I feel that if they would want to talk with me then they must do so in person. I have no time or tolerance for people who don't make you the happiness you can be... and then support you all the way.

Today I am glad to say that I managed to overcome something that was getting to me - within a matter of seconds. Luckily, I have a network of genuinely nice humans, that I can speak to about things like this. They will send me messages that cheer me up or even simpler, make me food haha.

Some days, life can throw you the worst types of people. When this happens, you have to use this to spark a fire inside of you. It will make you strut your stuff, walk down the hallways, get the things you have always dreamed of, then still leave you with enough energy to heat a scented candle at their grave. They died in shock at how truly spectacular your performance just was.

If that spark has not yet been produced, give them a smile. A genuine smile. There is no point wasting your time being unhappy over a few dramatized people.

How do you deal with problems?
I had a shower personally. That always helps.